A richly imagined and beautifully written story of family, obsession, and one man's search for identity.

The critically acclaimed novel by Jim Tushinski tells the story of 29-year-old Michael Van Allen.

Born into an extraordinarily talented family, Michael is the son of a well-known concert pianist and an equally famous painter. All his life, he has yearned for the talent and creativity that should have been his birthright but have somehow been denied him. When he wakes up in a mental hospital, his memory gone, his former life erased, his doctor tells him of his screaming breakdown during one of his father’s performances.


Identity Envy: Wanting to Be Who We're Not is a collection of creative nonfiction by queer writers exploring their attachment to another identity—a different race, religion, ethnicity, sex, nationality, class, a pop culture figure, something, anything—while wrestling with feelings of displacement, of not belonging.

Humorous and hard-hitting, poignant and provocative, Identity Envy includes essays, memoir, and creative nonfiction that explore the dynamics of growing up and being grown up, of wanting to belong and of finding one's way.

Co-edited by Jim Tushinski and Jim Van Buskirk, Identity Envy features work by D. Travers Scott,  Perry Brass, Jeff Mann, Joan Annsfire, John Gilgun, Max Pierce, Daniel M. Jaffe, Renate Stendhal, Andrew Ramer and more.

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